let us remember♣
November 11, 2010 / 1:20 PM
yesterday's convo was .. confusing.
is what you typed for our convo,
or was it for someone else?
and then when I asked you that you went offline,
and then you went back saying you accidentally signed off.
i retyped what i wrote but then you went offline, AGAIN.
so I went offline but then you were on
I logged back in to see if you replied to my messages,
but you didnt. are purposefully evading my questions?
you know, one of the reasons why our friendship never works out
is because we can't seem to be honest with each other.
and whenever you say you'll be here for me
I don't feel or get anything from that.
words are one thing, actions are worth more than what they're worth.
and i'm not getting anything from you.
it's whenever we come so close to the truth that things just break apart,
and we're back at ground zero.
it's easier to talk to you on msn than it is to talk you in person.
whenever we see each other, i feel as if i can't say anything
because the expression on your face looks as if you want to me something,
but you can't.
plus when you think i'm not looking you give me these looks .. idk.
last time .. what you said was sweet, but it definitely would have meant more if you said in person. and we're attempting this friendship thing again, but i don't know .. in all honesty, sometimes i feel as if i'm left with more confusion - particularly yesterday. do i have trust issues? i guess i do. and i think what you typed yesterday was pertaining to our conversation, because, well .. the situation itself was too familiar, and i knew who you were talking about. i could be wrong, but that's what my instinct is telling me. you can't regret the past because it's over and done; all that's left to do is smile towards the future. you'll probably accuse me of being a hypocrite by saying those words, but then again, everybody ends up contradicting somebody. i'm as vulnerable as you are, but i show it differently. i can't help but wonder if our friendship is real, and if you're going to lie to me again. I don't think I could take it twice.
this is when I miss being friends with another person,
because he knew what to say and what to do.
the weather today is parallel exactly to my mood.