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May 5, 2010 / 4:39 PM

I was dreading Saturday but I just realized it isn't worth the time or the feeling. And I'm going to enjoy myself, not to feel the opposite. I'm hoping not to see you but at the same time I sorta do,
and I think after the science test I'll be feeling slightly free-er too.

Ever since I’ve been missing you.. I’ve been tinkering on this art project. Just like loving you, it'll requires patience. It requires time. It requires care. So, I guess I’ll dedicate this to you. I’ll put my all into it. And when I’m finished.. I’ll be over you.
(credit: Julianna Pham)

my next big project, I don't know yet what I want to do.
but its centered on you, though you're never going to know it unless I choose to tell you.I probably wont, because its on a final good-bye. Eventhough we're not friends anymore I'm not going to forget any of the memories we've shared, and doing this project is going to help me face my fears. There are times when I still miss you terribly, but that's part of the healing process. So I'll wait until the feeling ebbs away, and the tide rushes back with dreams and aspirations.

“To be brave is to love someone unconditionally, without expecting anything in return. to just give. that takes courage, because we don’t want to fall on our faces or leave ourselves open to hurt.”

—	from someone who had a lot of thinking to do.