+ minty desires♣
December 18, 2009 / 9:47 PM
Hmmm. . . after this post I need to write a few more notes for someone special, then sleep earlier than usual. Haha, the one thing I love the best about winter break is all the sleeping I'll be gaining. That and the time I'll actually have to read the books I borrowed from the library and start the sketches for people. I used to hate drawing when I was a kid. Ironically, I really did. I found it tedious trying to imitate something that held no personal interest for me. That changed along the way though. Diverging paths seem to crumble against our will.
I finished watching War and Peace. I thought the movie was a bit confusing at first, and I even dozed off when Napoleon and his soldiers and the monarchy kept babbling on. Audrey Hepburn was gorgeous as usual, and Mel Ferrer was stunning. Not by his looks, but his emotions stirred something inside like a coffee cup. It.was.RIVETING. Now I have to read the book by January 26 and compare it with the movie. I thought Ms.Duffy was exagerrating when she told me the book was WAY longer than Gone with the Wind, but she wasnt-> it's like, one third longer, and that a LOT. It kinda changes the perspectives on things.
When I got home today I basically spent two hours eating and talking with my mom, and then cleaning my room. No joke, my room is FINALLY fitting to my needs. But I think the one paintbrush I'm missing got chucked out by my mom, because I've looked everywhere for it and can't find it. I can kinda understand her point though, because that paintbrush isnt the prettiest thing, but yenno, once you use something, you bond with it. yeah. Maybe I'm touched in the head. I found all these old letters and cards too, and thye made me smile, trudging up those memories you've forgotten but now fresh in mind. I wish you'd open up and see how you're acting, because it isnt you. I can wish for things I know wont happen, but it's sad to see you like this. There are moments when I can't stand your behaviour, then I chide myself because its none of my business. But when you become close to someone and a chasm gets opened up between the two of you, you can't help but wonder what caused it, why it happened, why then why now. I don't really feel anything anymore, no feelings of regret whatsover. Like, nil zero nothing. Or maybe it's because I'm happy, which is numbing all the thoughts running through my brain.
I love you GUYS. Like, literally. eventhough you take every opportunity to make fun of me and call me names, we've been through a lot together and have all these happy memories stacking up. thanks for the candiograms, I was really surprised you guys sent them, and they made up for the crappy morning waking up late and arriving at school one second to the bell and not feeling prepared for the english essay. I am flipping NOT your Boss Lector, but whatever, hopefully that name is going to die out SOON. and I'm not high class, throw that out the window okay (?)
BOOOM. There's so many things I'd like to tell you, eventhough your problems are your problems and my problems are your problems and I shouldn't stick my nose in your business but as your friend I'm concerned and you prolly won't read this yesterday but hey: keep the music flowing, its your soul, your life, your heart, my art. haha joking, its
your art. and keep updating your blog (loser, ily :D) because its really been dead the last couple of days. just because I'm high class doesnt mean I'm compassionate at the same time, hahaha.
SAAAM, I doubt you're going to read this, but hey, I LOVE YOU (: Eventhough I've only gotten to know you well this year the trip's been awesome my friend, but make it your New Year's Resolution to cut down on the poking. and random side attacks. they really hurt :( And get used to the hugging, it's where my love flows ;]
Heeey best friend :] Haha, you prolly won't read this, but I'm excited for tom. eventhough the hours are short but hopefully those hours are going to feel like DAYS. I think I'm so excited I can't even sleep, my eyes are pretty wide open. and I can't stop thinking of whatever fun we make up along the way. haha I should shut up now or else I'll type down everything I was planning to write in yo' card.
Letters. It's Christmas break, there's going to time to write them now. And maybe see you? I feel like I accepted this drift without really acknowledging it. I don't know. I can't find that feeling of connection, I'm lost in what's been happening.
Christmas party on the 25th.. haha, I'll be seeing them. I'm intrigued by how the party's going to go.
"Life is like a game of cards. The hand that is dealt to you represents determinism; the way you play it is free will." -Unknown {RT@ilove_QUOTES}
All I want for Christmas is youuu (L)
P.S. It's winter brrreak, and I'm happy.