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November 26, 2009 / 5:38 PM
It came down to a point where everything fell over the cliff and the tears escaped, leaking past all boundaries and causing puddles at my feet. I hate crying. But it's relieving. It's all the emotion getting out on you in a few shuddering breaths, but with people there you love it's easier. Everything comes out of breath that moment. All the bad stuff. All your thoughts. And your opinions.Thank you, Thank you so much.
I can type this in so many words but all those words wouldn't be able to express my gratitude enough for everything you've been through with me, and for all the times you've patiently listened and seen me fall. I don't need to address this to anyone because I know you'll know this is for you. Today started out with the wrong turn, and you saw right through me and held me back up. Really, you have no idea how much all you've done means to me. Just to put it through your head, I'm glad we're friends and I love you lots <3
I know you refuse to read my blog since you don't care about it *cough* but, thanks. not for stealing my highlighters, but for all you said today. yes, I'm sentimental. like with feelings, not my intelligence. so no making fun of me on that, kay? its called compromise dolphin ;)
Hii. I'm really glad you came to LFA and that you're one of my closest friends. It sucks a lot that I never see you often unless between breaks, and that I don't have any classes with you besides pe and planning, which are always fun, hehe. Did I tell you that I love you lots and that you're a darn true friend? You're always standing by me and can always tell when something's wrong, it's so easy to talk to you. Let's keep the memories rollin' my lawyer <3
dude, we need to sit down and talk. havent updated you on a lot of stuff that's happened so far. I know you wont read this, but we need to hang out during christmas and make stuff. or paint a canvas together. anything as long as I get to hang with you. cheese, you were gorgeous in your outfit today, did I mention that? plus when I'm hanging out with you we're going shopping downtown and visiting the art museum.
Everything's resolved but it doesn't feel right. The force that's pulling me back a bit. I don't know how to say it, but time moves on and so do the moments that hurt us. I wonder if things are ever going to be the same between us. I can't help but feel that something's not right still, like you didn't really understood what I told you. If you didnt, well I tried. But at least now, things are a bit better, but it comes to the point that crossing the border line results in disaster.
As usual, you're being self-important and acting like I don't exist. Fine then, be that way, I don't really care anymore. What else am I to expect from you, besides all this stuff that happens? You can't order my life around for me, all you're doing is making me miserable. I wont be happy doing anything you want for me, I'm only going to be happy doing what I want. I'm sorry you can't see it in my point of view.
I miss you like kraazy.
and the good ol' days.
If I had a time machine I'd be a tyrant with it, replaying and revisiting all my fail moments in life and the good ones. Just something to brighten me up, right?
If you decide not to respond to my fb wall posts, well, then its okay. you're just another person I'll meet, another person who's gonna touch my life the same way you've touched mine. I'm really sorry to what happened to your knee, and I think you need to do more volunteering. and possibly folding up more chairs. and, and, being a good person. it was nice meeting you, but now, I think I need to move back a bit and maybe just settle more school and prioritize later. but hey, lets keep talking whenever. and no, I'm completely fine :)
I can't ask for the past back but hope for the best future.
Who shares the same wish?
Meeting Sat. morning, who am I going to see then?
Not sure if I want to go, I want to sleep in.
one day, I'm going to travel over to your house and try not to set it on fire while baking cookies. then we're gonna do all these weird and crazy things and talk like there's no tom. and take pictures of everything and everyone and of ourselves. yes thats the game plan, because je t'aime beaucoup mon bestie <3
You're all part of this web I've created for life,
I'm going to keep spinning and weaving our stories together that'll last a lifetime.
THE 11 LAYERS OF ME, hehe.
LAYER ONE:
Spell your name with food.
N oodles
E nglish toffee
L emon squares
L ima beans
I ce cream
E verlasting mints
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LAYER TWO:
– Name: Marianelli
– Birthday: le 6 Octobre
– Nick Name: Nellie, Nels
– Current Location: city where the Olympics is taking place
– Eye Color: brown
– Hair color: black/brown - I don't dye my hair
– Right or Left Handed: righty right.
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LAYER THREE:
– Shoes you wore today: nike's.
– Your perfect pizza: pepperoni and green bell pepper with huge amounts of oozy cheese ;D
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LAYER FOUR:
– Best holiday: the summer '08
– Most missed memory: elementary, nuff said.
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LAYER FIVE:
– Pepsi or Coke: neither.
– McDonalds or Burger King: BK, who are you kidding?
– Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: both are fine, no specific preferences.
– Chocolate or Vanilla: le chocolat si vous plait.
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LAYER SIX:
Do You…
– Curse?: nopes, only by accident.
– Do you sing?: in the shower, daily.
– Want to go to college: mhmmm.
– Get motion sickness: nahs.
– Think you’re a health freak: nopes, I need my supply of chips and chocolate.
– Get along with your parents: I'll leave that up to you to decider.
– Play an instrument: tranquil triangle.
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LAYER SEVEN:
In the past month…
– Gone to the mall: yeps.
– ate a whole pizza: nopes. I could though, haha.
– Been on stage: yes.
– Gone skating: nopes. I should though.
– Made homemade cookies: I'm a danger to the kitchen.
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LAYER EIGHT:
Have you ever…
– Been in big trouble with your parents?: I think everyone has been.
– Lied about your age: nopes.
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LAYER NINE:
– Age you hope to be married: anytime before 30 would be great.
– Number of children you want: I'll go back to this 10 years from now.
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LAYER TEN:
Opposite Sex : male
Best eye color: friendly eyes that warm your heart.
Best hair color: anything, as long as it isnt bright, neon, rainbow colours ;D
First thing you notice: eyes, hand down.
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LAYER ELEVEN:
– Number of friends you could trust with your life: too many to count.
– Number of tattoos: zero.
– Number of piercings: deux, dans l'oreille? wait whats 'ears' in french? sigh.