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purple candle in the wind♣

November 8, 2009 / 7:28 AM

craap.
so much stuff to do today.
plus I'm coming home at 4ish?
but that doesnt mean I wont start my hw then.
i hate changes in plan.
and I still need to convince her to let me go on wed.
sigh sigh sigh DON'T LET ME DIE LORD.

need to start science notes, then religion prayer presentation plan (if we tell her how we're doing it, it wont be much of a surprise for her. ARGH. talk about being pointless) and then socials and the 4 sections of math I'm still lacking. stupid tests- religion and math on the same day. i swear, I'm so stressed I'm almost on the point of saying a bad word. when i saw Ren2 yesterday both of us were pretty much beating out hearts out, like, continually ranting eventhough mass was about to start. aaargh. nothing seems to make sense anymore. seriously, i need a cookie. screw the carbs. i havent even been able to colour the sketch i posted up a bit back :( just lying on my table looking preety and INCOMPLETE. killing me man, KILLING ME. the only thing i've been able to do properly was my photo stuff, and upload them to photoblog. ahahaa i didnt think people would actually like them, but turns out they did. i'm hoping i'll be able to bring my olympus (the big photography camera =D yeahyeah!) to the aquarium so that I can take these pro-shots (ahaha, in my dreams) but right now its on the verge of 'no' because i'm paranoid i'm going to lose it or something's going to happen like the lenses will get it then my dad will like, yeah, get pissed off he wont buy me another camera and that'll be the end of that story. i wish we could go to the aquarium with the other gr.10 science classes, but we're not =( awpooop.

celine took the photo posted (above). she kept complaining that my camera had a bright flash that "blinded" her, so she took these photos as revenge (i think?). she told me this is my "druggy lool." THANKS CELINE, very much appreciated. ahahahaaa. friday afterschool was very fun 8D

right now, I think I'm addicted to picnik.
and taking photos.
and kooking them around.
and basically my photoblog and flickr account.
i'm also disliking fotoflexer a bit because i tried using it yesterday
and it made my photos look okay-ish (look at the my photoblog entry today, the first pic of maggie. that was done using fotoflexer) but then the program is REALLY slow. i dont know why, maybe its just on my comp., but it was weird. plus my internet was fast as usual yesterday, so I know nothing could have affected it. but it took me five minutes to change that photo, unlike picnik, which takes me .. lesser time. i wish i had adobe photoshop- sad I dont have it, but my parents think its not a hem, "worthwhile investment." i wish they'd be supportive with my art. they're not taking me seriously on this, or my views. pissing me off like a kettle being overheated and making that whee-ing noise. like, that annoying noise that hurts your ear. hehe.

its prolly too cold to go for a walk today,
but yenno what, frick it, the day's a beautiful start.
time to head to my closet, chuck out the sweatshirt and sweatpants (what I basically live in at home) and head out the door with my shoes in ma hands.

hey, while i'm at it, I'll take more photos too (w/small camera)...

Come across you're lost and broken
You're coming to, but you're slow and waking
You start to shake, you still haven't spoken, what happened
They're comin back and you just don't know it
and you wanna cry but there's nothin comin
They're gonna push until you give in, say when
Now we're here and it turns to chaos, hurricane comin all around us
They're gonna crack, don't you back from the window, you stay slow
It all began with the man and country
Every plan turns another century around again
And another nation fallen

Maybe God can be on both sides of the gun
never gone, understood why some of us never get it so good, so good
Some are less fortunate than us
All the less we'll go after us
Never stops until we give in, give in, say when

Say When, The Fray.

'HALO' BY BEYONCE PLAYING NOW.