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October 14, 2009 / 6:24 PM

Too innocent for my own good.

I don't want to crack under all this pressure,
so I'm just going to do things my way today and not rush,
because rushing homework makes you do stupid mistakes,
like forgetting the "s" to a french verb and getting one mark knocked off,
while at the same time your teacher right in front of you tells the whole class she's really fair.

COME ON, WHO ARE YOU KIDDING?
what you did was just unfair.
its pretty dumb, but i'm pretty tired to hold out to an argument.

i learned a new word today, thanks AM.
but yeah, its very uncomfortable.
at least i'm not that naive anymore.. i think.

dumb math, these numbers are confusing me.
i feel like taking normal classes now,
or not attending school for a week.
and i want perfect eye vision.
and to stop feeling so tired.
today in french, while she kept talking about finding words that end in TION,
I wrote my name like this:

Marianellion

Yeah, that gave KC beside laughs. whatever- see, I cant even pay proper attention to what I'm doing. dumb, dumb, numb, numb.

yesterday i was slaphappy.
today, i'm slapsleepiness,
since I keep laughing for no good reason.
and i have no more backup plan food in my locker :'/

plus i'm living with a person who's completely ignoring me now since she doesnt approve of the social thing on sat. evening after our 3 conferences for MUN.

yes, cry me a river.
i'm not crying over this because that person is being ridiculous, on the verge of abnormality. i never do anythng wrong and that person gets mad at me and calls me names. i'm sick of putting up with it. its like some programmed play or something she likes repeating over and over again. its like that person is trying to think of ways to piss me off whenever i come home just because i'm not being who she wants me to me. i dont think the same as that person, i'm someone else. that person should just stop molding me into her perfect version of a daughter and grow up. or really, that person should just keep quiet. thinking about that person gives me a headache. it's not easy understanding, its complicated and conflicting.

urgh, math.
i'm wont get proper sense of this till my brain can actually understand what I'm doing. my eyelids keep fluttering and my head's starting to drop a bit to the side. i think i should nap for half an hour- it'll rejuvenate me. and i'm not sure if i wanna do mun next year. prolly wont, but we'll see.

back to math.