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September 22, 2009 / 5:08 PM

tired. so tired. and I slept at 11 yesterday, an hour earlier than the day before.
wow, I am so going to fail that first math quiz tom.,
eventhough it isn't for marks.
its hard to concentrate when you're tired
like, you're not up for anything, yet at the same time you have to do it because, well, you have to
plus, you're eventually going to have to do it, one way or another.

day 2 tom., guess thats okay.
math, aagh. I'll make the effort to memorize the formula but not do so much.
I just feel like doing nothing.
science- biome presentation.
gotta message people later.
religion- really, I still dont know what I think about her. and the class.
but i love the subject.
planning- oh boy, one of the best classes to end the day with, regardless of the fact if you're tired or not. ahaha. "they're brothers cause they're GANGSTERS" LOL, I am NEVER going to forget- so hilarious xD

french was pretty fun today, really interesting.
you can tell she's so passionate about her birthplace,
its pretty stirring. like, yeah.
you dont meet that many people who care so much, right?
plus its really obvious she completely adores her family.
I mean, you kinda gotta admire that, yenno.
There aren't lots of people who are really outspoken about it,
or who really enjoy talking about them (:
funny part today though was planning our 'free' no spending day
and making up our own theme park. AHAHA, IT WAS FLIPPIN' HILARIOUS.
kathy's going fast while the rest of us are still processing the information,
then she gets frustrated and tells us to hurry up, but at the same time she's SO funny that we cant help but laugh so much that we HAVE to slow down xD MAMA MIA. CM wasn't at school today, and i had to show her something :( hope she gets better. i only have TWO classes with her this year, so gotta make the most of it. but, since we're both planning to take the same elective next year there should be no worries :)

aagh, I feel like sleeping.
maybe I should doze off for two minutes.
but then those two minutes would turn to 5 minutes, then 5 minutes to 10 minutes.
honestly, i need to sleep more on the weekends.

I need some new reads, a latte, and a cookie.
where can i get those three things? =)

good day today- day one is always a good day, just full of homework.
we have those dratted latin and new vocab words due on my flipping BIRTHDAY.
come on, what a way to celebrate the day.
like, CEREALLY, no joke folks its horrible.
the only comfort i can draw from this would be the fact that on mon.oct.5 the day before,
i'm preety sure we have a late start, so if mko can walk by then maybe we can both go to school early, make a quick stop at starbucks, then head on back. man, love late starts. maybe i can ask MT to come along? hmm..not so sure. or i can just come early with MT and hang around and take pics for my 'project' for her (: eek I am so excited to actually start it- and to actually do it, lol. stupid camera keeps running out of batteries, and it would be so much fuss to bring the big one, even if the big one DOES take better photos and makes all my photos look amazing even if they're preety ugly. and i just have to look for another thing for it, yeah. i miss taking an elective this year so much- the days kinda seem dry without it, dontcha think? man, so worried for science presentation. i'll prolly forget something till the very last minute. need to plan camping thing with ST and KC- if we're actually going to do it, LOL. if we do go camping together its going to be really fun. yeah, can understand you better now, so weird. its like all the people that mattered to you before dont matter to you now. lol. that would make an interesting, developped character. everything happens for a reason, right?

I've always looked up to you, which you prolly must find hard to believe, but now that we're not talking much to each other since there isnt anything to talk about much, it feels like I lost you, or like nothing matters anymore. If you read this, well, yeah this is just my honest opinion. there's always this part of me that i've always held back, because i was always afraid of what people would say and the fear held me back, but i dont want to do that this year because holding back wont get me anywhere. i dont want to repeat the same mistakes again and keep doing the same wrong things. my point i wanted to tell you? i never got around to telling you this, but i always looked up to you the older brother i'd always wanted, not just as my best friend. you're like, my best friend. and i miss you. yeah. ahaha. but i', guessing you prolly wont read this, but whatever. you've been there for me whenever i needed you, and you're just so freakishly wise, ok. seriously. dont deny it and stop being modest. at first, i was pissed off for 2 minutes you deleted your blog during summer, because you never even told me and plus you broke that deal we made. but it wasnt my decision, so yeah. and then i also wanted to say i'm srry i couldnt there when you needed it, like when you asked me to go online to yahoo so we could talk but i couldnt. i was stupid to realize that it prolly was important and that you wanted to talk about it. so yeah. thats that. maybe you'll read this, and maybe you wont. oh dear pie, i dont know. but yeah, i really miss you. there were things over summer i wanted to talk to you about, and i never did get to tell you since i was busy at work. i should have made the time though, like made time for you and others i wanted to hang out with but I never did. there's lots of mistakes i just realized i made, and i hate how i just made excuses for them, excuse after excuse. there's a reason for everything, which is why i suppose we have to learn from our mistakes, one step at a time. so even though i did lots of bad stuff before, i want to change it. i cant exactly be the best buddy i was to you before, but i can try. plus i have to accomplish this thing to do to you which i promised MPR (oh man ;D) before modelun. i hope when i tell you, i can be completely honest and talk about it in a way that wont hurt the past or the present or even the future. they say some things should be left unsettled, yenno, right? is this one of things? yeah, no idea. and then there's you, oh boy. ahaha. my bff. why the pie dont we have any classes together? i wish we did, it'd be so much fun. we only have math n science, but we dont get to talk as much. oh well- lunch and the day is always the best. lol, this entry must be getting confusing, since i'm talking about so many people in so many different areas. like at the beginning and stuff and then in the middle in changes. LOL. yeah, made me points.

for once, i actually feel light,
like nothing;s bothering me anymore,
because i havent vented out on my blog like this in a while.
its very leaving.

you said we were destiny,
but i tell you that we're history.

hey hey hey- its a rhyming couplet :)

dang, want to listen to my ipod, cant cause i forgot its low batt. HAHA. i will never change that bad habit of mine.

'cause where it's from made me.

7:30 @ school tom. GROAN.
so dead, really screwed.