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September 21, 2009 / 5:27 PM

out of sorts today, I hate sleeping at 12
literally kills my mind and fries it-
had a hard time just trying to focus on those three stories in religion,
and almost knocked myself out during planning.
so tired :'(
and then I have to do all this research for those activities
I gotta do for science and DOFE,
because now she said do whatever I wanted and that she wont hold me back
as long as I told her where I was flying off to volunteer or something.
Hearing that felt kind of good, yet more and more weird in a way.
Because she was giving me a disapproving look. like, she didnt trust me enough.
and then i almost said "gosh" but then i stopped myself, knowing it wouldnt really help the strain between us. yeah, so we're talking, but that doesnt mean we're exactly peace and all that. he doth thinks that she's having a hard time of letting go (which I agree) but I just hope she'll get over it and learn to trust me more. the feeling i have inside of me now is like.. my wings are finally stretching out a bit, ever so hesitant. ahah yeah, tell me about it. guess i'm still shy about things. and then student council this year, eek, kinda nervous about it. i'm going to do it anyway, and if i dont get on this year i wont be disappounted- nothing gained is nothing lost, right? so might as well go for it, even if the butterflies in my stomach keep jumping everytime i think about. seriously, there's so many people running this year. dang, wish MT was in my hmrm. love hanging out and talking to her :) there's so much things going on now, that i actually have to write every single little thing down in my agenda since i'm more likely to forget it. football tom., excited 8) oh boy- PE always has good times, ahaha. even if i go to school preety tired, my spirits always soar during PE. plus I never seem to shut up laughing once I start, LOL. hair's a mess, better comb it. sarah dessen, keep writing- love your books.

I fake a smile so he won't see.
How I want, How I need-
He's everything that we should be.

smile guys, 'cause you're beyootiful (L)

P.S.

interesting convo before math-
me: I had fishsticks for breakfast.
michelle: huh?
kaitlyn: what are those?
shannon: oh, you know, those fish (at least, that was kinda like it)
me: fish, like, you know FISH.
shannon: fish thats breaded
michelle and kaitlyn: -exchange a confused glance-
michelle: OH, wait, you mean like fish and chips.
me: YES. except they're sticks.
kaitlyn: fish on sticks? - confused face, LOL-
me: NO, like, their fish shaped like sticks
michelle, kaitlyn, and shannon: OH- LOL.
me: sigh.

AHAHA LOL MY BROTHER' LIFTING WEIGHTS AND EXERCISING.
he looks funny doing it, but of course I'm totally supportive of him x)