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June 26, 2009 / 11:41 AM

I know there's distance between us,
but I didn't want that to ruin our friendship.
Or maybe it did, I don't know.
It's summer, and I don't want my mind to be plagued with these things,
but I guess since we're free from school and stress and stuff,
I guess now I can kinda see things a bit more clearly.
But that doesn't mean I know where we went wrong.
And also besides the fact that I realized I didn't really care in the first place.
I was just annoyed and aggravated at how things turned out between us.
You changed, I changed- whats new?
You had them, we didn't get to hang so much anymore.
We tried, but then ...
it didn't fail, but you lost interest,
and it pissed me off, because you acted like I didn't exist.
I always knew you had them.
So who was I kidding? Who were you kidding?
I'm not sorry I'm not the person you wanted to be friends with.
I just wish we still had time to go back and fix things up
and maybe not be a whole universe apart (like this).
I still remember the good times we had,
though I wish we didn't-
my parents know about this,
because they asked how you were doing and stuff,
and why we seemed to not talk that much anymore.
and what can i say? you figure that out.
i told them the truth, and that i don't know what led to this.
i don't what i did, if it was my fault.
you probably don't even care-
you're too laidback to really pay attention to things like this.
I look back at the pics in my album
and wonder when we took the pics, and why we looked happy.
I clean out my room of all the junk possible and I find many of the notes we passed.
I flip through the agenda in grade eight,
and surprise surprise,
I find a few pages with your handwriting and doodles.
Anything that I see that reminds me of you goes straight back where I found it.
I don't believe in forgetting the past, or whatever makes you sad about it.
I just think some memories are forever,
some memories should be kept and treasured.
Because when there's no going back,
how do you expect to go forward?

I guess I ended up making a big hole in your life, right?
I don't know about your life,



~ but you made a big hole in mine.