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June 13, 2009 / 7:33 PM

Guess what? I finally, finally, cleaned my room. ahah. not big news but new enough to share (: do you get that? wow i'm so lame. it was kind of interesting in a way, because i finally found that other pair of a glove i was missing, this white sock i thought i threw away but i didn't, all my french notes for the second term that i thought i lost and i was so mad that i couldnt find them so i had to make new ones -_- jeeze, when i found them, i started spazzing at my brother :p and for no good reason, too. ahaha, poor kid- not only does he have chicken pox, he also had to get spazzed at by me. HAHA. lol. yeeh nope i'm not high or anything. maybe just bored-high. like, you know the feeling when you're so bored, you feel like you could do about almost anything? even if it was insane? yeah, thats how i'm feeling. i thought i'd be able to go out today, but we didnt. darn. thats how i finally got the time to clean my room. suh-weet huh?

so yesterday was the official last day of school (: so happy its done. after the socials exam (which was a killer, believe me. all the second term exams are so freakishly hard. and i studied, so yeah. argh. oh well. i'm not so optimistic about getting my report card) i thought i'd be staying in the cafe for another 3 1/2 hours, when michelle ko came to the rescue- on an impulse decision, i decided to just ditch waiting with others, and to go have some fun before it ended. we went to kerrisdale- subway, then mcdonalds. saw a few others across the street while we were there too ;) i think i'm getting used to taking the bus now, though it feels a but weird at times because if my parents knew what i was doing, they'd give me the biggest grounding-punishment ever. i dont know so much though- i just wish they'd show me some more trust, and try to wrap around their heads that i'm a big girl grown up now. jeeze, it gets so ridiculous at times. but the only thing i feel when i'm hanging around my friends is happiness, not so much of my parents worry and stuff. i only think about it.. after. yeah. see. its kind of conflicting and making me a bit worried. yeah, my head is so stuck in the middle. but we had a great time yesterday. that McFlurry was to die for, it was so pi-a-licious. no joke yoke, no joke.

school's done. lol wow- I keep repeating that. done gr.9, hello gr.10. this year has been overwhelming for me, but in a good way. lol, just try understanding me here. i learned so many things, gained many numerous, life-teaching experiences, and ... stuff i basically didnt know before. so maybe the road getting there was rough and bumpy in places, but there were still smooth patches that were easy going through. the road may have been especially rock in the middle of the year, but thanks to my friends, i made it through. thinking about it makes me realize that friendship is all around, and that your TRUE friends love you for who you are, and dont judge you anyway possible. everything happens for a reason, and having fun while studying is .. fun, haha. what else can it be? ;) we'll continue having those big eye-opening moments: ones that'll shock, ones that'll make us cry. but the thing to remember is that when you least expect it, there'll always be someone shoulder to cry it on. and to rant it out on your blog (but it really helps, doesnt it?) thanks for being there and showing that you cared. thanks for all the advice and the hugs and the friendship that will always mean so, so much to me. merci beaucoup for sticking with me through through, because I wouldnt have made it without you. (ok, now i'm going to stop this sentimental mood here before i start crying :p)

time's not going to make me forget about this past year, or the years before this.
it won't make me forget the bad times, and definitely the good times.
it won't make me forget about first love.
it won't make me forget about heartbreak.
it won't make me forget about pain.

time brings change with it,
and with change comes a multitude of opportunities for us to blast off to the future
with hearts full of gold, and plenty of wisdom.

"They always say time changes things,

but you actually have to change them yourself."

Andy Warhol, The Philosophy of Andy Warhol
US artist (1928 - 1987)