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awake and dreaming.♣

June 6, 2009 / 7:00 AM

you're there, but not really there.
you're there in person, your presence having no change in the room
it's like no one cares, or seems to understand your conflicting emotions
or the uneasiness and insecurity biting at the edge of your heart.
sometimes you're just zoning in and out, in and out
you wonder why you're even there,
when you want to be somewhere else.
you wonder whats the point of trying so hard,
if no one's going to change how they act around you
you think of how things would be different,
if they weren't already.
you imagine yourself as the person you want to be,
not the person who you are.
Happiness and feelings of content are emotions you hardly feel anymore
It's like you're living in a shell,
a shell you can't seem to escape,
or even peek your head out of.
Wearing a mask does no difference,
because people can still tell who it is,
though they cant see the real you.
You know what I think though?

Stop acting, quit dreaming, and wake up.